Why is it always that the greatest people in your life end up being really hard to stay in touch with? This is a problem for me, especially lately. My best friend's parents are sending her to Juvy for failing a drug test [She smoked some weed like 3 months ago]. I don't know how far away she'll be, but I'm pretty sure that it will be far from here, and I know that it'll be harder to talk to her.
I love the fact that I go to a boarding school - the dorm gives me a place to go at night where I can escape from my parents. However, every time people get kicked out [which happens a lot because they can kick you out for next to nothing] you lose a friend that you've lived with and really talked to on a deep level. One of my best friends from last year was kicked out at the end of the year. I'm not sure what school's going to be like without her this year. She and I had a lot in common, and she was one of the few people that I could talk to without being judged. She lives about eight hours away though, so I doubt that I'll ever see her again.
I'll also probably never see the girl that I talked about before... the one from Indiana. I met her at a pre-college program this summer, and even though I haven't known her long, I really care about her. We tried to get together a few times over the summer, but it never seems to work out. Once my parents said no because of the expensive plane ticket, and once I saved up enough money for one, she was at a family reuinion, and now we both have school. I can feel us falling apart because it's been so long since we've seen each other.
I guess I'm just feeling disconnected with some people that I'm really close to lately. I know that once school starts tomorrow, I'll meet new people, and I'll get over it to some degree. I'll still miss them though. I know that my bff will always be in my life, but the other people probably won't. I can't believe that I'll never see them again. I'm just terrible at letting go of people, and even though I'll never see some of the people I know ever again, and I have other friends, I still miss the people from my past.
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I'm exactly the same way, actually. this past summer I lost over half my friends for one reason or another...and I miss them all so terribly. Making new friends is always good and fun and everything, but it's not the same as keeping in touch and being able to hang out with them. However, I have made new friends and I know you will too. Try not to cling onto the ones from your past...just look at all the great times that you had with them and know how much a part of your life they were, and also know that there are many other people who you will once again gain that connection with. Look forward to it. =)
yeah, I need to get it up there, I know. Would you guys like me to post some of the old stuff? Cause I may just do that...in any case, keep a look out for a new blog, because I'll put it in there instead of just using this same one. It'll be organized better that way. =)
I wish I went to a boarding school. I went to nerd camp this summer for three weeks and we became really close. It was so hard to leave. It was like I had lost my brothers and sisters.
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