i don't know...
why after one text i'm falling for my ex all over again, why i'm at college in a small town in the south, the difference between obsession and love.
hello.
a lot has changed since junior year. i'm a freshman environmental pre-law major now, and i actually enjoy the subject matter that i'm studying. i fell in love... with a girl... and i'm okay with that. i'm currently waiting for a guy (kevin) to move to atlanta so that we can be together, but tonight the boy that moved across the country and broke my heart last winter texted me and told me he might move back, and i'm already questioning everything. i have no idea what i want. that's a lie. i want him - the one who hurt me - brett. college is about 2.5 hours from home. i go home every few weekends, and when i do, i am intrigued by another girl. we've had a crush on each other for quite some time now, and apparently she wants to sleep with me. (insert roflcopter).
so there's my fucked up love life in a nut shell.
oh wait, i forgot to mention the crush on a beautiful gay boy/my best friend at college that i just got over. we got drunk and danced all night at a party and then made out two weeks ago. oops. am i a slut? be honest, i'd love some sort of poll. these things fascinate me.
i am a strange person in case all the things i just said didn't make that blatantly obvious.
according to my old posts, i used to wonder why i couldn't connect to people at my high school. now i know. i am weird and awkward and they are preppy jocks. the level of common interest isn't exactly off the charts.
is any of this at all interesting? who knows...
and who knows why i'm writing this when i have a giant essay on bioshock (yes, i'm in a video game class) due tomorrow?
goodnight.....
